“So will My word be which goes out of My mouth; It will not return to Me empty, Without accomplishing what I desire, And without succeeding in the purpose for which I sent it.” Isaiah 55:11
As I sat waiting for my Christian friend to arrive, I did not expect much to happen, for I had been in this psychiatric center for five months, with little hope that God really wanted to help me. After all, as far as I could understand, I had just gone too far in misrepresenting who He was.
I was not wavering in faith in believing Who Jesus was but rather doubting who I was.
But God had a plan for my life and it was GOOD! (Jeremiah 29:11).
I had always believed in His Word, but now His Word, I believed was condemning me. I had misinterpreted it and thought I had lost my salvation. It wasn’t until later, I realized how costly this was. But God is patient, gracious, loving and full of mercy. So He sent His Word through a friend, and when she read it, I thought of only one thing.
What else could I do but “Wait” ?
“But those who wait upon the LORD will renew their strength; they will mount up with wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not faint.” BSB (my emphasis)
Shortly thereafter, I was released from the PC and returned home still experiencing doubts. But, little did I know God was about to perform what He had said. And it happened on a flight to Michigan. On each flight I was assigned to sit near the wing of the plane. This proved providential – Isaiah 4o: 30-31
Unfortunately, It was during this visit with relatives, I became depressed and emotional. When my mom witnessed my breakdown she wanted to take me home. But instead of wallowing in self-pity, I decided right then and there I would not ruin this trip, and instead said, “Mom, I’ll just have to wait on the Lord ”.
That was the moment when I heard the Lord’s small still voice:
Saying, “Don’t give it the time of day, just walk away.”
So in obedience I began ignoring the voice of condemnation and moved forward in faith. While focused, I was strengthen as I felt more and more of God’s affirming presence. It was as though He were standing right next to me holding me up, and “His Peace that surpasses all understanding” I eagerly embraced. (Romans 8:1)
On the return flight home while seated once again near the wing, I heard again Him say,
“Even if you just sit there and twiddle your thumbs, and do nothing else, I can neither love you more nor less, because my love is perfect.”
I realized He was saying there was nothing I could do to earn his love, nor anything to lose it, because it wasn’t who I was but who He is and what His Son did to secure my salvation as “permanent”. His work is finished! (Ephesians 1: 13-14, John 19:30)
“Then they inquired, “What must we do to perform the works of God?” Jesus replied, “The work of God is this: to believe in the One He has sent.” John 6: 28-29
(my emphasis)
What I learned is when you can speak the Word you believe, God moves on your behalf. That is why I want to encourage you to read the Word yourself and not just read it, but believe it, confess it and apply it to your life.
“From ancient times no one has heard, no ear has perceived, no eye has seen any God besides You, who acts on behalf of those who wait for Him.” Isaiah 64:4 BSB
My Prayer: Thank You Lord, for accomplishing what you desired, And succeeding in your purpose to deliver me and manifesting your unconditional love. 1980



